Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Oh My English...

Once, my English language either written or spoken, it was good, way good than I used to practise nowadays, or I could say lately.

I bet the changes happened due to environment that surrounds me. I used to write most of the time in Malay, makes me now not-that-'fluent'-and-'smooth' in English language. Regrets? A little bit. But hey, it is never too late to learn and keep sharpening the usage of the language, either it's our mother tongue language or not.

Therefore, hereby I am making a step forward action and would like to have a new lease of life in enhancing and improving to a better English. Let's make this blog as a portal journal, exactly like I used to write in a log book back in 1998 where I used to write journal in English and also vetted by loveliest English teacher at that time, Miss Bagavathy.

If I don't have any idea what's the best word/sentence to tell you in English, I will quoted it with this mark '.....', so that you know what am I trying to say, at least in Malay. SO deal?

Sepertinya susah mahu memulakan sesuatu yang bukan kebiasaan. But If I don't start doing it now, when will I do then? Right?

English hasn't been so rare to me ever since college time. Sungguh kesal dan menyesalkan bila tidak dapat memahirkan kemahiran ini to the highest level that I could reach if I did practicing the language ever since after school.

I can understand English, but not a hardcore one. I can write in English but not an EXCELLENT masterpiece, yet. Oh, I wish I can do well in this.

It's not easy to narrate something in English. I find it hard as compare to my mother tongue language. I appreciate my Malay language more but at the same time I wish I can excel in English too.

See, adakah anda nampak ketidakselesaan saya bercerita di situ? Ini disebabkan saya ketiadaan idea untuk menyambung post yang terperam lama.

See you in other post, then. Peace.





Monday, November 5, 2012

Penilaian, Dinilai...

Rasa tenang and aman tak, membaca blog entries saya sambil berlatarbelakangkan laut dan pantai ..... ? 

It works on me. Tiba-tiba teringat Pangkor. Saya bukan jenis sukakan pulau dan pantai pun. I mean, to stay or live there of course. Tetapi, sukakan kedamaian dan dingin pulau dan pantai tu boleh jadi. Sangat-sangat suka! Suka fefeeling sendiri. Makanya, dengan harapan penceritaan blog saya di sini akan jadi setenang dan senyaman deras bunyi air laut inilah ye...

Baiklah, talking about Musim Penilaian...or Assessment mode/season la kiranya sekarang nieh. Setelah kesekian kalinya bergelar si tukang makan gaji, tidak dinafikan saya banyak terpalit sedikit (jugak ler..) 'sejarah hitam' dengan sesi-sesi penilaian nieh. But this year is like my second year pun. Second year but first time in this company. In previous company was my first AND also my last there. Woa, how significant!

Kalau dahulu, saya di dalam mood perkahwinan dan ketika proses melahirkan, penilaian saya dikatakan 'tidak berapa cemerlang', which to me it was unacceptable. Kalau kerana mengandung saya dituduh hilang fokus and I didn't expect that he will assessed me that bad. As if my drafted memo and paper work never get noticed by the CEO....as if boss has never appreciate me for using such good words and proper sentences for the newsletter...as if I've never contributed to implement new way of writing memo and announcements and the list of as if continues .....

Never mind,  it was past then. Benda lepas jangan dikenang. Life must move on.

Now, in my current workstation I went through the assessment session again and it was yesterday, Nov 1. And many more to come as I will be here working till end of my day, insya-Allah.

As this is my first year re-joining back this Company, my marks for this year's performance is OK. It is standard and I could see I am quite satisfied. Dan, dengan penuh iltizam dan semangatnya, I am hoping and pray that marks will slowly climb towards to the highest mark in achieving 'excellent' standard.

Enough said?

Ketidakpuashatian? Ada, harus ada. Tetapi mungkin sekelumit sahaja. I am imperfect. Mana mungkin serba serbi saya ini baik, bagus dan seratus peratus boleh angguk setuju.

Ada perkara yang diperkatakan buat saya terfikir-fikir, terngiang-ngiang, teringat-ingat sampai sekarang which is 100 per cent not good for health. Yang mana tidak baik untuk kesihatan itulah, yang eden duk fikir. Haih. Berhentilah otak untuk memikirkan perkara yang (mungkin) belum tentu jadi! which is ...

entah...

Saya mungkin belum mahir, semahir-mahir insan dalam dunia untuk menulis berita atau rencana bertaraf Kajai. No, I am not (yet). Tetapi insyallah, saya yakin with full guidance, moral support and extensive exercises given, supported by superiors, I am sure I  can deliver 200 per cent lebih daripada biasa. But...

Dari gaya bercakap, cara 'memberi nasihat', anda dilihat seperti tidak memberi sebarang galakan malah ianya dilihat lebih berjaya menyumbang kepada masalah kemurungan yang serius dalam diri saya. Ya, anda berjaya, I can conclude that.

Sejujurnya, saya bukan manusia jenis ini sewaktu remaja saya (of course, nan hado masalah gini waktu zaman kanak-kanak). Jenis yang sepertinya senang murung, mudah tersentuh, terasa serta tinggi juga sensitivitinya terhadap persekitaran dan perkataan-perkataan yang men'cemuh'kan. Seriously. But somehow, it turned out to be totally up side down lately. In me, myself. Indeed. Oh I shouldn't have remain acting and behaving this way. I should not seriously.

Justeru bila anda bersikap demikian, dengan keadaan diri saya yang sebenarnya mungkin belum lagi menunjukkan taring-dan-potensi-sebenar saya, saya jadi serba serbi tidak 'enak' dalam fikiran dan benak hati. Saya mula mencari-cari di manakah kesilapan saya di dalam pencapaian saya setakat sehingga ke hari ini. Again, yes, maybe my write up not that 'powerful' as you wanted/expected but please do not demoralise my motivation and intention to always perform my very best in everything I do. Only that I hope you change and please do not 'affect' me if you permit to do so. Sungguh, saya terkesan.

Apapun....

Setelah pencarian rakan-rakan yang boleh saya 'sandarkan' masalah saya ini, termasuk teman sehidup semati, Encik Suami, saya jadi lebih lega dan sedikit tenang. Terima kasih kalian. I know, I am not that good (again, yet. Insyallah, soon I will). Tetapi sesiapapun insan di dalam dunia, andaikata diberikan latihan dan teguran yang membina, tentunya insan tersebut punya kesedaran dan inisiatif sendiri untuk maju ke hadapan. This implies on me. Truly. 

Untuk satu aspek ini sahaja, buat saya berfikir panjang, memang sangat tidak berbaloi, bukan? *geleng-geleng kepala*

Oleh yang demikian, apa pendekatan saya ambil : diam diri, duduk diam, kumpul segala bahan-bahan bacaan yg boleh membantu saya mempersiapkan diri ke arah menjadi seseorang yang 'perfecto' sepertimana dikehendakinya. Dan belajar juga untuk tidak mempeduli sangat apa jua perkataan dan kata-kata dia yang telah dan akan terpacul dari mulutnya = kerana ia tidak 100 peratus benar dan 'ikhlas'. Adakala saya berasakan ianya lebih didorong dengan emosi semata. Cemburu barangkali. Yes, mungkin.

Kepada yang membaca, ambillah pengajaran di bawah :
  1. Tidak terlalu memendam rasa dan berfikir panjang kerana ianya bakal mengundang stress dan penyakit-penyakit kronik yang lain.
  2. Sedarlah dan bertabahlah untuk dugaan sebegini dan sentiasa percaya there's always a silver line behind things happened.
  3. Bangkit dari kemurungan dan berusaha sehingga sehabis daya bagi membuktikan tuduhannya itu salah dan meleset sama sekali, which what I am doing now and yes, it is an ever ending spirit in me.
  4. Dapatkan kumpulan sokongan dan kata-kata pembakar semangat dari mereka yang anda sayang dan percaya. It helps a lot!
  5. Anda sememangnya BOLEH, tiada yang BOLEH melainkan yang BOLEH BOLEH belaka!
Prove him wrong, Abby! Prove her that you can do it! Prove to everyone that you're EXCELLENT!








Thursday, November 1, 2012

Hi-5!

One two three four .... High Five! One two three four .... High Five! Aaaaaaaaaaa .. Five in the air, let's do it together!

Kalau sesiapa biasa menonton, rancangan ini tentu jadi kesukaan. Boleh jadi kesukaan jugak lah. Sebab enjoy. Entertaining. Dan tidak pernah ada yang bosan tentang Hi-5, setakat hari ini saya tengok. And I am talking not about my favourite show, but it's my son's favourite tv programme. Yes, he's with the name of Imran Imtiyaz.

Hi-5 adalah terdiri daripada mereka-mereka di bawah ini.



Kalau ditanya pada Imtiyaz, siapa nama-nama mereka, I am sure he can answer you. From left : Laurent, Tim, Fely, Stevie and Casey. And the reason why I can simply remember their name is because for every episode of the show, five of them will introduce their name right after they finished singing their main/theme song.

Like this, 'Hi, I'm Laurent (switch frame) Hi, I'm Tim (different tone)' dan seterusnya. Senang ingat tu. It works on kids to memorise their names.

Kenapa buka cerita tentang Hi-5? Hehehe sebab kesukaan Imtiyaz ini telah menjadikan Iyaz seorang yang sangat becok dan tidak berhenti menari whenever the song or rhythm is ON. I just love seeing Iyaz follow the way they dance and perform. Sungguh menggelikan hati dan sangat mengujakan hati saya untuk lihat dia seaktif, sebijak dan selincah lima bersaudara macam dalam Hi-5 tu ha.

First, their songs are nicely composed and written. Their grammar and usage of words are all sync, and of course proper and good for children to learn. I super like and heart the show.

Selection of songs are all perfect and as a bonus, every episodes offer different type of theme. Their costumes are colourful and using blocking colors, my favourite (recently)....hehehehe. Dan banyak lagi perkara-perkara baik dan best pasal Hi-5, yang mana pada saya it's a good show for everybody to wash anyway, no harm. Ala, untuk suka-suka.

Through the show, saya lihat Iyaz develop banyak skills baru. As if he wanted to copycat or try doing the same from what he watched. Antaranya, make sandwich on his own, sweeping, cleaning closets and bed, tie shoes and banyak lagilah. Kalau ada sahaja benda pelik di mata kami dia buat, we all bet he might have learnt something from the show.

As for the words, we could hear his pronunciations are getting clearer each day. Humming to the song and tone, sometimes it's most perfect to be heard. Lantas kami jadi teruja macam itulah perkataan pertama yang keluar dari mulut dia. Hehehe funny us, yes!

Walau bagaimanapun, dalam pada Iyaz seronok menonton dan dalam pada keterujaan kami memberi kebebasan dia menonton, ada 1 aspek yang kami perlu beritahu dan didik dia which is : dog is an animal which he can't touch just like what is shown in the tv. Ya, Hi-5 versi Australia memang semuanya anak-anak mat saleh yang bukan beragama Islam. Ada satu slot yang mana (kadang-kadang) kanak-kanak dibiarkan bermain, berkejaran dan memandikan anjing which is NO-NO for a Muslim to do the same. Thus, itu antara perkara yang kami alert and once anak saya mula bertanya, he must be well-informed ;) Insyallah, will let you know of the progress.


What's more fun about Hi-5? Oh their costumes and their storyline. Itu 5 actor and actresses adalah sangat pandai melakonkan watak-watak animasi dan imaginasi which I don't think I can't do the same, or as good as they are. Dramatik dan sentiasa menjadikan penceritaan itu satu jalan cerita yang mengujakan.

Contoh : Jumpa ikan paus dalam laut dalama adalah FUN, bermain dengan bayang-bayang adalah PELIK, masuk dalam kapal angkasa dan membayangkan diri berjumpa matahari adalah JAKUN dan banyak lagi...

Isn't that fun, Casey?- Wow, this is cool! - You should have been doing this, I am sure you'll enjoy it the most - Good job, Tim! You did it! ...dan banyak lagi kata-kata pemberi semangat yang selalu dilaungkan kelima-lima mereka. Voiced out in such vibrant mood, tone and style, Imtiyaz jadi senang belajar dari lenggok ayat-ayat tersebut. Dan bila-bila kalau saya hendak memuji, menegur dan memarahi anak, intonasi sama yang saya guna, dengan harapan dia faham dan tidak ulang buat. And he did it, most of the time....it means, he could understand what he has heard and watched. Alhamdulilah.

Terlalu banyak bercerita tentang Imtiyaz dan Hi-5 nya. Kira adillah bukan, sebab Ibu dah pernah bercerita tentang Adam dan Hawa nya :-P. Kegemaran Encik Suami? Sudah tentu-tentu MasterChef dan segala macam rancangan memasak atau berunsurkan interior design. Hehehehe next entry boleh cerita pasal itu pula.

HI-5 EVERYONE!~